After she moved away, over time, the inevitable happened... we went on with life, growing a little more apart each year. In fact, we hardly talk now. Though I love her and I know she loves me, there's a huge distance between us - not just time and space but emotionally, spiritually... There's tension and hurt... I only knew about the purse snatching from my mom and my mom has very little real contact with her either. It's true that when we talk, we always say I love you, but really don't talk anymore.
I told you before about how my 10 year old neice and I share our little stories through the mail... that's my sister's daughter. I send my neice postage paid envelopes and she sends a story. Then I send one back to her. This morning I was excited to get a big fat envelope in the mail from her. I knew it was from her because it had my own handwriting on the front. When I opened it, a little beanie baby pelican fell out and a tiny little note that read, "I'm sorry, my mom says I can't send stories to you anymore. Please don't tell her." There was a penciled circle with the words, "My love and kisses were here."
I won't go into all the history because I don't want to violate her private life. There have been a lot of years of painful rejection. At times, my husband has held me as I cried and said that we need to cut all ties until things change. I just can't! I miss her, or the her she used to be. Don't get me wrong, part of me wants to be angry and be done with it! In fact, this morning I wanted to scream, to throw things at her, to give up trying to have a relationship with her. But then there was that thing... the thing I wrote yesterday about giving grace when another adult has hurt me. Ugh, I hate it when my own words come back to get me!! So I'll try to continue this day in grace. Afterall, Christ gives me grace several times a day...
Putting that behind me for a bit, I'll move on to something a bit more cheerful. =) I found a little website that you all might enjoy (Rasberry Berett). Well, I didn't really find it. More like the click, click, click in blogland landed me there. She has some lovely things and isn't her header/logo yummylicious?!
Here are a few of the fabric bundles I have left to send. A few have already been mailed and I'm just so thankful to everyone who contacted me. I hope you won't be disappointed! There's still soooo much to go through. Maybe we'll do a give-away or make some kind of game of it in a few weeks.
I took this picture yesterday while it was sunny out just to show you the... well... empty flower pots. At one time a few weeks ago they were full of flowers but the rain has drowned everything. Except the weeds, of course!
Well, I must go work on ebay listings... I've fallen a bit behind this week. Have a wonderful Saturday! Blessings...